A lot has happened in the last 8 months. I went through a lot. I can’t really get into my personal life on here as they will get upset. Those of you who know me, know that it has been hell.
My swim life has not been hell. It has been so good. I have medaled, I have lost weight, and my speed is top notch. I continue to go through hell, but my swimming has helped me so much and the people I am around are awesome. I also want to point out that I have lost about 70 lbs. since January of 2014. I was in a lull and stayed the same weight until I had a bad breakup. I then merged the “breakup diet” with my pseudo vegan diet. Yes, pseudo means I only eat egg whites and fish for protein. No dairy and other meats. I am also cutting oil out as best as I can. It hasn’t been too hard. I didn’t have an appetite for like three weeks after I lost someone special. I am coming around on that though. I am continuing to live in South Orange County and swimming regularly with the Oak street Laguna swimmers.
This summer I was supposed to do a relay from Catalina to Laguna beach on the 4th of July. Well, that did not happen and I was sad. Nothing to look forward too. Oh well. I think there’s talk to have it next year, so I hope I am in for that.
I have been feeling really down lately and this writing in here is helping. Swimming helps. I love it. No one can take that from me. My happiness may be gone for a bit, but once I hit that ocean, ahhhhh pure joy.
This morning I swam at 6 am and it was dark. I didn’t care. My sense of fear has gone since I am on this kick of whatever attitude. It was really cool. Usually, I am not awake, but my sleeping has been really bad lately. I have energy in the morning, so I decided to go out. Best decision ever.
I have also decided to swim around Anacapa and Santa Barbara islands next year. I really wanted to swim around Palos Verdes, but someone said that is just a training swim. I want to be cool and do something cool, so I am looking forward to training into next year. My life needs a goal right now and I am stoked to share this.
Oh and swim camp in November! I am going to get a bikini. I hope things start to look up for me, but I know in the swimming world, they always do!